miss yall

im having net turned off before next billing cycle im tired of only being able to get 21 to 24 kbps i tried up grading paltalk and do a few other things i time out or it will take close to 10 hours to do it and i also need to be able to use my phone ill check in when i can while i can . Be safe walk in peace allways sonshine P.S. i hope to be back soon

44

wow im 44 and today we got our 44 President.I hope and pray in so many ways we finally become the country so many dreamed in a walking talking and living caring way in a peace finally.A peace so full of fairness and caring we as all humans in all walks of life can become all we can dream and finally become one and not stay a racial or religious judging place any more .I pray the dream has come a new day and time of peace prevail all humans humans free of slavery of any way or unfairness in trade around the world may all slaves to unjust human owner ship and self shame be gone!!!! and may free at last not to free of our human experience ,and be a free spirit in a world undergoing the change of fairness of us all being who we want in a peaceful life. PEACE TO ALL

who am i

I sit and been thinking so hard sometimes i forget to know yourself you have to know your true past not just yours but your family's you culture your history .Then i realize i have no clue i want to be a rainbow woman true and threw .I am of many nations in this melting pot a stew with no cook the chief who made it made it unbalanced so the taters and meats all started to rot instead of replanting and cooking afresh it seamed so many bring the baggage of our past .We live in so called equal times of fairness and equality of learning and shaping who we really are a baby country with a history of land so much older and elders here foretold .Now a stew is bubbling and splattering with no timer to stop what happens when a stew go's unwatched? i know lets add a presser lid call it The milk and honey with out a drop of the indigent's it says it has and call the best and fresh,s there is wish the original chiefs had used fresh and new for got the past and grow anew but old stock added in with fresh young dreams into of all seeing only the naturals colors of earth and art are it seam.s is a bubbling stew some burnt some fresh and raw i think its time we be who we really are and stand tall we are every nation made one in a land that was filled with honey and berry,s no room for the meek. I think ill be meek and seek in silence with only typed words to hear no voice no emotion no sharing and growing .But in my heart i can't live in a place of no art all shared with fresh meats and fruits and heal and peace in a calming caring sharing place i live in a man made cave and hear millions of thing's and people passing me by as i sit in wonder who am I?

Thunder and Lighting

Here i sit and wonder what do we do with thunder?Lighting i know can make a fire can kill all it touches while thunder is the sound that can scare from far away .Will humans try to finely harness Mother earth?If you where the earth and all on you saw you as nothing how long till you get so mad and hurt you send the thunder as a warning, then open all the sky with lighting opening your skin spewing out your hot lava and venting your pain and hurt and all who harmed sad even those who did not will get burned. As when a anything living on earth goes insane with pain it can see no difference cause with blinded eyes and with ears that can't hear and a body cut off from the soul of oneness there will be no more use for us.

Ignorant too

I been thinking a lot on this word ignore ant then with my southern braw its ignore it. When so many are taught a mixed into so many different cultures at once it gets so easy to ignore it all when you have no clue what should be your own norm .you see life in so many ways and when you move to the so called wrong side of the tracks its like walking into a outdated propaganda program.Then as you start to really learn in a way you can understand with no proper guidance to the propaganda that has become a truth in such hushed ignorant way .As i learn able who i am or could be as only good and maybe the mormen would have the history sense part of who i am came here and the part that was here in a part that is a cover in a dream of wanting to keep up and do way better then the Jones.Who keeps up with the smiths tho who can shoe the Horse make a wonderful garden tool where the power is you.When did we become so fast we forget the first rule you have to be open to learning things that challenged all you ever believed and shown not more then once but many times in a word looking up day to even partly understand in our so called english language country most the fricking laws and explanation's are in Latin even medical and law terms are in them why is this ?Well pooy now i learn im even more ignorant the one meaning unlearned uncouth well pooy im learning that even in a country where people think we should all speak english so many hide in the latin in more then just this country no wonder we cant be healed a ignorant human could never understand a world they live and where raised that has become false so many worlds on one world no wonder i stay confused.Cant we all just learn laten or pick a world language that is not so double or triple confusing meaning 1 thing for 1 work or part of a word and where human is the main word for male or female and not in just how it is said like a hidden message?

vessels

Vessels there are so many kinds!!!! I got to thinking about how many kinds of vessels in my way of thinking and how i thought of each kind. Like 1/2 full or 1/2 empty. How many kinds of vessels a ship a vase a cup wow Then i got to thinking wow im a vessels for my spirit my mind my heart kidneys and all the little germs that share it with me to keep me and them in a living breathing vessel. Now some that share vessels are not such a good thing some are who's to judge tho ? The 1 who says 1/2 full or 1/2 empty? Can the one who says you don't have a spirit say ? can the one who says there's no such thing we are just a genetic code built from creation? More i think the its like wow my brain is a vessel to my thoughts my memories my holder of the glands that make my emotions just wow like the little carved people open one up and you can get a whole family and each can hold another or something you hold dear. Me i think i have a spirit and a brain in my vessel. The balance goes up and down like a ship. People who have a whole vessel of brain or spirit and forget the vessel needs some kind of balance push a lot of other vessels to the breaking point. Like a ship and a ice berg something are not meant to touch but both are a part of the vessel that holds the seas wow see it gets so mind goggling to me. To think something as simple as a vessel could really be so many great things for good or bad in and on this vessel we call earth in the vessel we call the milky way just wow im a speck in a multatude of vessels.

Races

I have decided sense im so many races im tired of hating myself for things i never did .I'm tired of hearing i must have pride in this or that when Pride is earned not required in my world.I live in a rainbow world some say i walk a red path but in truth i walk a path of a rainbow ,blue, green, yellow, orange, red and magenta of clean air in a poisoned world rainbow way.I left the south the final straw to me was all the prejudice but i found it all over in my tiny travels .I even sometimes still catch my self in old habits that never where good to start with so with tears i clean myself .Yeap i said self cause if yourself is not first how can you help or even truly care for others?i was on the fast road to death not like its not one i been left on before but GODGONEIT people had to awaken me from death to a body i hated .But now i love me knowing im a rainbow no mater my past or who's fault rain can wash away the pain tears can reconnect humans in respect i think.SO the healing within myself must start. World and fellow humans we also have to heal ourselves and the earth shes the only solar Mother we have .