Trust

I have allowed me to be hurt my last time from someone i have meet on the net .I am even going to take it to far as thank you human for teaching me do not trust a man again .Vows are a strong then to keep also very hard at times .I would know i have a vow that will be over in a few months .Then i will be taking the last Vow as a woman i can.I have found trust is a big thing you can trust someone or something a entity i will call them.They can lie to you harm you all in the name of helping you heal or what even it is you trust them with .What happens when you find you miss placed that trust you loose some of your self trust.You start questing why.I am tired of the why and never get a answer from then you can allow this to tear you apart of put your trust back where its safe and comfortable in God.As humans you deal with other humans with there own agendas.You see as you feel not as they see or feel so you trust yourself to be connecting when you really never did i trusted my dad he broke my heart at 4 i trusted my big bro he said starve.I trusted my mom she layed with my love.I trusted my love he broke my heart.I tried to trust in love and i now do i trust no mater what God will love me as he is the one who saved me sent people of him to help me sent me people to help.I trust as long as i am alive i will know there is a God and Mother earth is alive and someone will always want to harm for no other reason then a cruel laugh.I hope we as humans can finally trust as a whole we can heal the earth so our kin folk 7 generations can breath clean air again like we have not in a long time.I trust enough parents who care will stand up and finally say enough i hope the teachers will finally stand and say the truth is what is needed and teach it.I trust and home life will go one way after i leave the net and never return.I trust one day this rambling of mine will help someone know its it not all-ways your fault.I trust google will stay truly helping freedom of choice in all life will go on and the sharing of all peoples truths and not just changed junk being called a fact will be called a truth when it is not .I trust a bird will sing th4e morning i take my last vow to the male side of spirit .I trust i will find happiness with in my mind as my balance is getting close to being for a while at least within myself.I trust life for all is not so bad as i have lived or as i have read.I trust people will learn to see its the we in the mes that will make the final difference .